anita, ok, that hurt a little.  “He doesn’t love you“.  I’m partly joking.  This is the type of things I need to hear/read.  I don’t want him to love me anyway.  Just respectful, decent and polite.

I think I was a little ambitious and had high expectations about the “serene acceptance”.  Although it truly felt like that at the time I wrote it, the rest of my day has been anything but.  My mood has been slowly getting worse throughout the day.

He knows I’ve been mad for the past couple of days and during the afternoon, he would pop up at my desk to say very random (non-work related) things.  I’ve been staying away and keeping my answers to one or two-word sentences: “yes” “what?” “ok”.  When what I really wanted to say was “Leave me alone!  Stop trying to make nice”

We left work, had a smoke, he was going on his date with new girl (thanks for letting me figure out a ride home!) and wanted me to give him a hug. What the… ?

Silver lining? I won’t be seeing him for 2 days, which I think will do me some good.