Dear Risha:

You are very welcome. Your plan to move away reads like a good plan to me.

You wrote: “I loved him so much and I find it difficult to imagine my life with someone else”- the following occurred to me as I read your sentence and it might be a good idea: do imagine. What if you closed your eyes while listening to romantic music and imagine yourself interacting with a different man, maybe a movie star you like. Just imagine the man taking you out to dinner, looking at you with love and respect, and  so forth.

Would you like to try it and tell me how it goes?

anita