Dear anita

Thank you for your reply, it means a lot to me.

When it comes to talking about myself here it’s not a bad thing, you’re right. However, in the past, sometimes I talked too much about myself that it became toxic. Now, I’m aware of this and try to balance between a healthy way of talking about myself and a toxic one.

I always feel that my mother is disappointed.  It has to be her way of living, and if not, she’ll criticizes every move or things I say. It’s like I should be someone else, to reach to her standards. Her mother is a clear example of narcistic behaviour, and that may be a root for my mother. My grandmother always says negative things and complains about everything.

You may be right about the cheating. I have to think about it, why I did cheat. I’ll come back to you on this point.

Thank you for your reply!