Dear Bella:

No need to apologize for feeling what you feel. There is nothing wrong with expressing sad and lonely feelings. It is not that you are going on and on and on about it, like some people do, people like my mother did, on and on and on so to spread her misery to the listener, or in this case, the reader. You are stating what you feel and that is fine with me.

It doesn’t sound crazy that it takes all your energy to just get out of bed. As the social animals that we are, we need to be connected to others so to feel that energy to keep moving. I read recently a horrific story, about an inmate in prison who, as I understood it, requested out of protective custody/ isolation to have contact with other prisoners, to be in the general-population even though it meant that he was to be a sexual slave to another prisoner. Horrific, an extreme example, but yet, a lot of people, including myself preferred bad company to no company at all.

anita