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Thanks for posting that link, I had not seen any of those threads and will have a good read-through when I get home later.

It most certainly is difficult and I’m interested to see how people who were in similar circumstances are doing now a year or so later. I wonder will I feel better by then.

I seem to have reverted to the early stages pain again, where reminders take swipes at my heart and my tummy and I can almost instantly cry, which is weird for me I guess.

I would love to have an epiphany and just have a clear picture about a positive future!