Robi1992:
I’m not trying to judge, really. Just trying to give advice. It does seem superficial, to me, to think that you need a lot of sexual partners, or that you need someone very attractive.
Are you realistic about being with someone who is at an equal level of attractiveness to your own? If you watch a lot of porn, your attitudes can get warped about how beautiful or sexy you “need” a woman to be.
Also, social media and fictional things, like movies or TV, don’t portray reality. You may think that other people have so much sex or so many partners, but even if some of it is true, that type of existence is a pretty empty and unhappy one, for most of those people.
Loving yourself first is key, then living your life (not just sex), then the person who is right for you will come into your life.
Sex isn’t the main thing in life, it’s just a part of life. Being loved for your whole self, not just your body, is what will really make you happy.
I think you will probably want to learn to let go of your extreme fantasies, and learn to just love and be loved instead.
p.s. I wrote all of that before seeing your newest post.
Though I run this site, it is not mine. It's ours. It's not about me. It's about us. Your stories and your wisdom are just as meaningful as mine. 