Hi guys,

My work Xmas party was last night and it went ok. I’m glad I went but I’d be lying if I said most of my thoughts were still spent on my ex.

When I got to sleep, the night was spent dreaming of us reuniting. It’s not fair, it’s hard enough at a conscious level to tackle my thoughts, I’ve no control over my dreams. Then I wake up feeling bereft. Also I’m all alone today because my family are all away and my friends are busy.

My sister feels I need to have to time by myself sometimes too but I find it terribly hard. I get scared. It must be of the pain coming in or that I’ll be weak on my own and end up contacting him.

I better come up with a plan soon.