Shelby,

I’m assuming his sister contacted you to say happy birthday? It is only natural to receive this sort of contact as you were big parts of one another’s lives, don’t let this put you off or delay you in your moving on process.

If you do contact him, so what, the back and forth, up and down is all part of this crazy messed up journey. Have you given it any more thought about that ‘final conversation’ we mentioned a few days ago?

My weekend was alright. I feel when it’s good it’s great, but it’s reality that’s killing me every time it kicks it – I don’t know if it’s something that will ever really fade in time or not… Can’t wait to get away for Christmas now! I feel like I need time away!