Shelby,

I can relate to that completely. I feel that way every Thursday on my way to therapy as I literally have to drive past his house as it is located about 5 minutes away from there. Actually, I have even seen him once or twice on my journey so with everything going on at the moment I know Thursday will be even more difficult for me.

We are alike in the way we think of some things. To me any time away from him is just so unnecessary and such a waste of time. So I understand when you say you just want to go back to being ‘us’. Try and shift your mindset back to the here and now. Noone knows what the future holds. Things could turn around and unfold for you in so many different ways. And remind yourself that this may not be making sense right not but one day it will.

Shortly after my previous post I could feel myself slowly going into a panic attack. My heart started beating out of control, my mind in absolute overdrive, I felt so fearful in that moment and had to try and bring myself back to planet earth and just breathe through it. Giving myself pep talks. ‘You’re okay, you’re alive and healthy, stop torturing yourself! Keep breathing!’ I still feel quite uneasy and can feel my heartrate is much faster than normal but just trying to keep breathing. This is real messy. I cannot wait to feel remotely okay again. I would much rather be empty and feel nothing, similar to Saturday, than feel all of this intensity!

So non-surgical reshaping essentially is fillers. They use fillers to alter the shape of your nose, make it appear smaller/larger, disguise any bumps or imperfections, lift a droopy nose etc. I have a bump on my nose and have been considering surgery for many years but have delayed due to the time off I would have to take from work, the recovery time, and I guess just the fear of going in for surgery! What if I don’t like it in the end?! What if the pain gets too much for me? Whereas this is a non-permanent solution and lasts anywhere between a year to two years depending on how quickly your body naturally absorbs the filler. It is also a pain free and 10 minute procedure with minimal bruising/swelling and instant results. I have done quite extensive research on it and watched many videos to familiarise myself with the procedure and the results and I really think I’m going to go for it. I’ll let you know how my consultation goes tomorrow!