Frederick,

Thank you so much for your reply and taking the time to send me some clarity. I love what you said about doing kind deeds in order to feel more of that inner connectedness, I agree completely. I also agree that I have opened my eyes and come to a huge realization as well. I view the world so much differently but I almost see this  as a spiritual awakening. Just trying to learn how to cope with all this new information and viewing the world in a different way then others.