Hi,

Sorry to hear you are going through so much right now, my heart goes out to you. Anxiety is scary and can be about anything. In my opinion, you seem like a very health-conscious person, and possibly having your tooth taken out scared you a bit because it symbolises that you are mortal, teeth decay just as we do. That is a scary thought.

I injured my leg once at the gym by lifting too heavy and I had awful sciatica. I stopped going to the gym for 6 months after that, even when I was perfectly well. I thought I was just being lazy but deep down I was scared of injuring myself again, I felt old and weak. I didn’t trust my body anymore.

Do you still trust your body? Do you still think your body is strong? Maybe think about this.

Also, anxiety is very complex and can be due to a combination of things, even though you may not feel like it, try some mindful meditation or deep breathing to make it a habit.

Good luck,

azu xx

Hi Emily,

Just wondering…

Does this sort of describe you?:

She says: ‘I’m not myself, I don’t have boundaries, I feel transparent, everybody can penetrate my energy; people don’t see me, and hurt me with their trolley in the supermarket, the world seems unfriendly to me; I hear myself talking as if someone else is talking for me, my thoughts go faster than my voice and I make mistakes; my feelings are gone and I feel as if things don’t touch me any more, but I get angry about trifles, even about things that happened in the past.’

She has headaches because her neck feels stiff and her sleep is unrefreshed.

She says: ‘Life is a burden to me, full of things that I have to do and I don’t want to do; I am apprehensive of everything, even agreeable things and I am afraid of being incapable; I merely survive, I have the feeling that there is nothing enjoyable to live for.’

After taking this natural remedy for about 2 weeks, she now says the following:

1. I feel happier, more confident when perturbing things happen, less negative
2. I am gentler and more amiable/warmer
3. I am more aware of what I feel myself
4. I distinguish clearly between what is agreeable and disagreeable to me; I distinguish clearly what are my sorrows and problems and what those of other people; I am able to stay out of their problems now
5. I have deeper feelings, I express my likes and dislikes more clearly
6. I feel stronger, more positive, happier
7. I care more about my clothes, how I look
8. I feel more open, less anxious; I realise that only I can improve my condition; I’m doing what I feel that I really want to do
9. I am more efficient, no longer procrastinate; I get on and do it
10. I rearranged everything in my house
11. I am more conscious of what I see, I watch better, I am more aware; I experience the outer world as more real; I participate now in what happens and do not just let things happen
12. I finally have the desire to live
13. I have more common sense, seeing things more clearly, more as an adult
14. I’m doing what I feel I really want to do; I distinguish clearly between what is agreeable and what is disagreeable; I clearly indicate my frontiers; before an examination I feel much less that I have to prove myself, am very relaxed and study efficiently; I feel more structure in my thinking and doing; I am capable of distinguishing the essentials from the side-issues; I have a deeper observation; seeing not only things and people but also feeling them; I feel more in touch with everything
15. I feel more adult towards my mother: this is my life, don’t interfere with it
16. I am more easy-going, less fastidious; no longer have the urge to finish everything the same day
17. I accept myself better and have less anxiety about not being accepted by others; I am less sensitive to what others say about me
18. I feel more in touch with reality, more conscious of good relationships around me; I have started to clean up the house, more than ever before; I am more silent, feel less urge to talk
19. I feel as if reborn; much more independent, easy-going and stable
20. I am more stable, the chronic fatigue is gone, I have much more energy; I am much more self-confident, I have less sensation of being the scapegoat, more capable of leaving others to sort out their own problems
21. I feel less easily disturbed; I no longer feel anxious about my children and husband; the sadness has completely left me; I feel quieter and my concentration is much improved
22. I am more introspective, I feel more free, more profound, more self-aware, I can be more vulnerable; my feelings have deepened, I feel things in my belly instead of in my throat; I feel closer to other people; I say “I love you” with my heart instead of just with my mouth
23. I am fulfilling my own needs now, and no longer have the sensation that other people are usurping me
24. I am more conscious of my boundaries; I am more aware of my feelings, I was too cerebral; I feel better in my body
25. I can say “no” more easily
26. I am more alert; it is easier to manifest myself; I feel more harmonious inside; inner chaos and restlessness have disappeared; I am able to see auras.
    …………………
    Let me know, okay, Emily?

    All my love,

    Jane

Dear Emily:

Dec 6, 2018, exactly two months ago, your wisdom teeth were taken out. During that event, at the dentist office or clinic, you experienced an anxiety attack. When you woke up from the anesthesia, and after you experienced as I understand it intense  fear and the brain’s/body’s reaction to intense fear.

The brain/body reacts to intense fear by disassociating, or as it is known in the animal world, the “Freeze reaction”. There are three reactions to perceived danger: Flight (running away from the perceived danger so to escape it), Fight (fighting the perceived danger so to disable/ kill it), or Freeze. The Freeze reaction is the animal playing dead, only it is not playing, it looks like it is dead and in looking dead, the hope is that the predator will leave it alone.

The way the animal is able to look dead, to not run away in fear, is that it feels numb, it feels what you have felt: like it is in a dream, nothing is real, not being there, floating elsewhere, detached, numb,  odd. These emotional experiences make it possible for an animal to not move while right there in the predator’s presence, sometimes in the grip  of the predator’s mouth.

At the dentist, neither running away, once under anesthesia, nor fighting were possibilities for you, this may be why the Freeze reaction took place. Then over time, as the Freeze experience continued, it itself scared you, as in.. why am I feeling so odd, what is wrong with me..?

I experienced this myself, the fear and the Freeze. Once I realized what the freeze reaction was about, I understood that it didn’t mean that there was something wrong with me, but that I reacted like any other animal reacts when neither Flight or Fight are options.

anita