Dear Romeo:

You are welcome.

For as long as you believe that you were then and still are responsible for your mother’s emotional well being, you cannot be happy no matter what job you try and what girlfriend you have. You have to be free from that belief you had since early childhood.

That early childhood feeling of a BIG failure does not allow you to be content with SMALL successes in your adult life.

After an initial high following your fitness/health success, after the initial high getting your mother’s recognition as the flight attendant that you were, following the initial success in relationships, being  looked up to by the two women you mentioned, following those, there is the fall into the Big Failure, that of failing to make your mother happy.

You are stuck in the pit of that big failure.

It was not possible for you to succeed, you were a child. It was not possible for you to pay off your mother’s debts.

anita