Dear Janus, Earth Angel:

In the core of gender dysphoria then is fear, an ongoing or repeated fear, fear not based on imminent and present danger such as a predator lurking or a tornado in progress or an earthquake. We call this kind of fear anxiety. It feels terrible, it feels like we are going to die, but it only feels this way. The fear itself is not dangerous. And when there is no  real life danger in our current circumstance, what we deal  with, basically is extreme discomfort.

The ways that work for people suffering from severe anxiety will work and continue to work for you too. “constructing a schedule that will help (you) stay organized” is such a strategy. It is important for an anxious person to get organized and remained organized, to “allocate time for different tasks”, so to  avoid rushing and panicking. “The meditation routine” is another strategy, so are the walks in nature you like and are planning on.

I am glad to read that you continue to aim at “not draining (your) energy with trying to make people accept” you, and that you continue to work on asserting yourself.

“I don’t need to have the acceptance of my parents… I am not wasting my energy trying to get them to understand who I am”- excellent!

You are welcome, Janus. Thank you for your appreciation of me and for wishing me a good weekend. I wish you the same, and a nice walk in nature!

anita