I want to move on from the fact that my mother doesn’t love or care about me and that I am not good enough in her mind.  When I was growing up my father was abusive physically and mentally to my mother and us children. I was his only daughter and he used me, to say nasty things to my mother (I was only about five years old).  This has damaged our relationship for years and we are not close.  When my sister was born, they became close and I felt excluded.  They did everything together and it hurt me because I felt not good enough. My mother put money into giving my sister things and opportunities that I never had.   So recently I wanted to talk to my mother about some issues I was having. My sister called me numerous times to leave my mother alone and she threatened me physically.  My mother has blocked me completely off.  I feel like my mother played us off against each other.   How do I deal with it.  She wont ever change her mind about me, that I’m a good daughter and have value too.  I feel like rubbish, second best, I want to surround myself with people who actually care about me which I have. But I want to break this belief and cycle that Im no good.