Cass and Anita, thank you you so much for this. I will return here during the trip to read your advice and guidance. I appreciate this so much, my mind has been going crazy, comparing, playing out scenarios and just being nasty to me. I feel a lot better today, and I’m definintely going to pack all of my feel good things like books, iPad, and music. You guys are very sweet and I am glad I reached out, makes me not feel so alone.

To answer your question Anita, I have. He has said that I can go back to the room at any point alone or with him whatever I need. He is a nurturing and providing person so I doubt that will change on the cruise. I think it just hurts him I have been so worried about this trip. I am trying to just accept that this was my decision, and now I need to go an experience it day by day. This is the furthest I’ve been away from home and the longest so it is very nervewracking.