Anita,

i don’t really look or feel my age. My friends say I look like I’m in my early 30’s and growing up it was always like that too. I looked 12 when I was 14 no fun then.

Yesterday was a rough day because that’s when I felt myself really processing whatever might have happened with M and younger S. All I know is he bought her a drink in a bar where she was with friends and then went up and talked to her.  From there I have no idea.  I keep trying to tell myself I’m better than that and better than him.  She is in her 20’s and he’s 45.  Everything about that situation and him in general makes me feel sick to my stomach.

I just want to be over it completely and things keep happening and I get upset all over again. I’m confident that 1. He probably does not think of me at all 2. If he does he’s glad he doesn’t see me anymore.  I just wish I was better in general. At everything. My mom and I got I. A big fight yesterday and I could really just use a person to make me feel better and keep me company.

Lindsey