Anita,

i don’t understand why I feel ok for a few hours or even a day and the suddenly I’ll get bombarded with feelings of anxiety.  Negative and unhealthy Thoughts  will run through my head and it’s up down up down. I’m feeling really tired because I have to take kilonopin at night 3-4 days out of 7 the past 2-3 weeks due to panic trying to fall asleep.

I feel like I can’t stabilize. The up and down thoughts make me feel worthless, damaged, and paranoid.  I cannot seem to get past The events of M. And I’m really tired of still being upset about it. I want the thoughts out and gone like it didn’t happen.  I want to start enjoying more that an hour or 2 a day. I want to get along with my mom and not feel like it’s all my fault.

I feel like my mental health is weighing me down and sometimes I can’t tell what’s real or not real in my head with situations.

Lindsey