Dear Anita,

I feel exactly like my mother, or sound like her:

I think, oh man I wish someone could guide me – alas I feel so lost in this process on my own

INstead of thinking about it strategicially I get overwhelmed and discouraged, and fixate on those who “made it” and how some of them are phony/not good doctors/not even appropriate providers

I feel so overwhelmed by it , that I want to put it to rest – without even have tried, and just focus on going to work and being an employee and NOT developing my own thing.

But then I know that itch will not just disappear – and so it will come back, leading me more disappointed that I ‘never did anything with it”

I know this is all very unreasonable and leads to nothing productive at all – just stress frenzy – and most importantly if it continues, I will be unable to focus on my husband, his healing – and being a good listener