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Anita,
I appreciate certain images and scenarios may be gross to some and not others, just like group sex is to you… For me it’s not so much a woman having sex whilst pregnant, it’s that in this particular situation, that girl was carrying MY child. I really couldn’t care less if her or any other woman were to have sex whilst pregnant, as long as it’s not while it’s my child that’s being carried… I’m the one who feels irreversibly hurt, humiliated and ridiculed by it, and it obviously isn’t going to ever go away.
As much as I deeply despise her for what she done, I randomly sent her a gift of £100 the other night for ” being an amazing mummy to my boy” and wishing the newborn every luck in life.
So yes, as much as there’s deeply ingrained resentment for her in my head and heart, I still know howto “do things right”
As for me living the life I do and the life I have planned. I am free to do as please no? I am not hurting anyone or cheating on anyone. In future if and when I am wealthy, the ladies I date will be not be mislead or manipulated in any way. They will have full freedom to come and go as they please, as well as be free to date and do what they want in their own lives.
After being so deeply hurt by the mother of my child. This is the life I want.
Jackie,
I already have a pretty good vision of what I’m going to do and be, and not only that but the wheels are in motion for the business etc.
I think I’m already implementing what you suggested, in that I pretty much completely disassociate from anything she does and remain totally indifferent to almost everything except that which concerns my son.
I not only have a brilliant social circle and active lifestyle, but because of all this hurt I’ve built the kind of life I only once dreamed of.
Thanks guys