Peggy,

Thank you for your reply. Everything you said makes sense. Except there is one thing I am worried about. When you said, “flip your thinking on its head – they were attracted to you FIRST.” I try thinking that way, but I realized something. I believe my cousin and I have developed a subconscious competition. She has always based her “beauty” off of how many guys like her. So, I don’t think she cares if my exes liked me first. In her head, this is the first time she is meeting them and they are clearly attracted to her. So she doesn’t care if they were attracted to me first and nobody else seems to care.  I feel so stupid. I feel like I honestly believed my first love and my ex-boyfriend of 3 years liked me for me. I thought they were attracted to my looks over others’ looks. I thought they liked my personality over others. Maybe that type of thinking is wrong, but it’s how I viewed them. I liked their looks and their personalities over others. I probably wouldn’t flirt with any of their cousins or friends because I have no reason to. I chose to like them, not their friends. This makes me feel like they just pretended to like me or something. And to others – it makes it seem like I’m delusional. I REALLY believed my first love and I had something special? Well, people probably think I’m crazy for thinking that because if I really had something special with him, he wouldn’t be flirting with my cousin IN FRONT OF ME. It’s just embarrassing.