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Hi Mark, thank you for replying to me. How long were you engaging in the bike rides and marathons? What finally was the breaking point that allowed you to realize this was no longer serving you and that it was time to let go of it? Sometimes I think I get so tired of having a routine but hold it closely to my heart in terms of having a comfort zone. So while I feel the desire to break out of routine, there are certain things in it that I cling to (not going out to socialize, drink socially, spend money frivolously on going out to dinner when I can just eat home). I feel torn because some of these things I know will introduce excitement in my life, but I fear sometimes that the possibility of spreading myself too thin either energy-wise or financially will cause me stress. Also, I feel conflicted because I do realize the importance of giving, generosity, putting in the effort to make a positive difference. I always make it a point to give weekly to my church. That to me is important. I also give to the homeless/needy. Sometimes I don’t really feel the need to spoil myself that much by spending $9 on a margarita or $70 on a pair of jeans at the mall. I kind of have grown out of that phase years ago, the need for a ton of materialistic stuff. Don’t get me wrong, I do purchase a decent amount of stuff, mostly groceries and gas for the car (welcome to adulthood.. lol). But sometimes I don’t feel the rush of excitement from buying a pair of shoes or something that will stop with me being the end recipient all the time. I like gift giving and volunteering my time too. I do like exercising. I think the past few years, I have been dabbling around with finding activities that give me more of a sense of purpose, fulfillment, and make me feel more interesting and wise. I like writing to penpals around the world, and the idea of travelling and taking day trips always gives me reason to look forward to. I have been very fortunate to have done a decent amount of travelling. I love that. Mark what are some of your favorite things in life that make you truly happy and give you that feeling of “Wow, I am so excited that I have this to look forward to?” Thank you!