It all boils down to my insecurities before. Feelings of vulnerability and not wanting to believe that she liked me that much. I have worked on all this, and I’m in a much better place.

This is also before I even met her too, I wasn’t sure of myself. I’m always improving. I’m doing my best to stop being so self conscious.

I also believe the way I was brought up has had an effect in some way. I was never able to open up to my parents when I was younger. Whenever I did, I was pretty much laughed at and told I was just being ridiculous. So instead of trying to tell people how I felt, I would just close up.

I never once heard my parents tell me “I love you” or even “I’m proud of you”.