Thank you both,

It is really hard and not having the one person who can make it feel better makes it worse. In the beginning it felt like a cheesy 90’s music video of everyone moving in blurs around me just sitting on a bench. I know what you mean by it feeling wrong. I don’t feel like I have made any movement at all in the last 5 months. Just writhing and feeling the same thing. Whilst she is off having a new life with new people. If it’s so easy to just end it and move on then whats the point. Everything and everyone says to just accept it and move on. So something bad happens, accept it and move on, then the next bad thing happens, accept it and move on, and on and on.