Dear Gaia:

I didn’t predict you will feel like s***. I thought you might feel better because where your development was arrested, or stopped or significantly stagnated, it can resume, just as happened in my mind/heart/ life, just as it is still happening.

“How can I unblock this development?”- change your daily routine so you spend less time alone, overthinking and daydreaming. Make physical exercise part of your daily routine, maybe a long one hour walk per day. See if you can take a yoga class, or an acting class in university as part of your weekly routine, let’s say 2- 3 times per week. An acting class will be wonderful for you, with the right teacher, interacting with other students and the teacher. Make a balance in your daily routine between time with other people and alone time- you will need enough alone time to recover from socialization.

“How can my brain stop being this way?”- brains don’t just stop being this or that way. Over time you change habits, you learn things that matter (how to regulate your  own emotions, how to socialize, how to thoughtfully choose your behavior).

You can’t magically change your brain. Changing is way slower than it is in fantasy. Daydreaming you can make anything happen and fast! In real life, you can make some things happen and very, very slowly.

Gaia will  need patience, lots and lots of patience with how difficult and slow things are in reality vs fantasy.

anita