Anita –

Can you elaborate on this – Another point, for the child that you were, hope was with your parents, however horrid they were, your hope for life itself, and a better life, was with them. Therefore you were inclined to see them, at least your father, as better than he was, as someone promising. As you go on, remind yourself of that inclination. Even though your father was not as bad as your mother, he was and is plenty bad on his own right.

I’m not sure I completely understood it.

I’ve been in bed all morning. A bit fearful to go outside. In about two hours, I will head to my sisters place. We will be hanging out all day for her birthday. Not sure of specific plans.