Hello,
I guess the honest truth is I do not what our relationship to end. I’ve worked on myself and actions and think I’m more mature about our relationship and understanding myself and my actions. I don’t want him to leave, i think I’m a totally different person that the girl I was before I want to work it out but I know I can’t force anyone to love me again. It’s just a hard to let go with all the guilt and love I still have.
And just to be clear he is still very nice and a proper person. But is not the type to go into details about his feelings. So a lot of the time I’m just making up the rest of the story. At this point all I know is that he feels he wants to “see what else is out there” but will not take the steps to move on. I think that’s what confuses me most, and honestly gives me (I guess at this point falsely) hope that he’s seeing the changes I’ve made personally and wants to rebuild what I had. Maybe I’m being naive and just can’t let go. It’s not his fault but mine and the end of the day.
Oh, and to add, I own the apartment and everything in it . As much as I wish I could get up and leave,I cant. It’s very uncomfortable sometimes.
Charly
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