Dear Alina:

To reply to you in a thorough way, I will  need to return to your thread when I am better focused, which will be tomorrow morning. But for now: can you tell me about your history with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)? What obsessions did you have before the current obsession of whether you love this man or not?

Also, to the best of your understanding: what symptoms of disassociation did you experience in the past (feeling numb at times you think you are supposed to feel excited, feeling disconnected from the here-and-now, like you are an outsider to yourself and to your life, a stranger to yourself, etc.?

anita