Dear Anita, Dear Valora,

Thank you so much for your insight and your words that I needed to hear. I appreciate it truly. Also writing things down cleared my head a little, and I feel more grounded.

Having known him for quite some time, I know he lacks responsibility, decency and ambition but I kind of thought it’s because he has a more difficult life than mine.Maybe I tend to make up excuses for him, because I just needed someone that I felt comfortable with and he was available and easygoing. When we met, I was in therapy trying to figure out why I had no relations with any man for over 6-7 years, he was taking care of his mother who was going through a heavy cancer treatment. That’s why he lived in his hometown not here. He then lost his mother. He is in debt but he works on and off because he is in the movie production business and he works only when this guy he knows decides to shoot a film.

But, of course I have my own needs and I need more attention and more respect than what he could provide me. We had some conflicts over the time because of these basic differences in our ways of life but maybe we needed a push like this to go our seperate ways.