Dear Gaia:

I agree, that what I wrote to you doesn’t contradict what you wrote to me. I am less of a believer in predispositions than I used to be though. Therefore when I read: “I was prone to anger since I can remember”, I think.. you were hurt and scared long ago, and anger resulted. This is how animals get angry: first they get scared, or hurt (and scared of that hurt feeling), then they get angry. Emotionally, we operate like other animals.

I fit several mental diagnoses myself, and I was officially diagnosed with several, I suppose you can call them mental-illnesses. The diagnoses themselves did nothing to help me, none whatsoever. You get a diagnosis and you think it gets you somewhere.. but no. At best it is a starting point to therapy, as in: what do we- the therapist and patient- tackle first. Healing itself has to do with basic elements, raw emotions and the basic principles of the workings of our brains, not with the many, many categories of collections of symptoms aka diagnoses decided on in psychiatric conventions, people sorting out symptoms, basically.

Tell me more about your anger, if you want, express it here verbally, with some self discipline of course, such as using *** for profanities, and avoiding descriptions of most terrible violence imaginable. Still, expressing some of it here, can be a lot of expressing, and it can help. I will read attentively and respectfully, and reply to you.

anita