Dear Cali Chica:

Good morning. I will give you my first reply of this Friday morning based only on your post of this morning. I read: “I too felt that affection after your last post”, when I started to read the next sentence: “I think it’s best”, my mind continued your sentence: I think it’s best that we don’t talk anymore, something like that, I think it’s  best we end it here. I don’t have the words because well, that’s how those neuropathway run, so quickly.

My point is, as a product of a borderline personality disorder mother, a bpd mother, you can’t trust a positive expression, an affection because you know something very negative and threatening will be happening next, an expression of hate, of aggression. So you are prepared. Often angry, because it is both fear and anger that result from perceived danger, for all animals. Scared and ready to fight. As a teenager I remember feeling a lot of anger toward her.

I will next read previous few posts and reply again.

anita