Hi Anita ,

No ,  the current boyfriend I am referring to is not Jason . Both my ex and Jason , I had referred to in my previous posts are happily married now .

The current boyfriend I am referring to is my long time Friend.

The ‘same Wrong’ thing is his expectations which I am not able to meet and that becomes a mistake which I committed . Small things like not communicating everything to him forsay , booking a flight , not prioritizing him over my work and these stuff.

I want to add one more point here that he has no support from anyone . He is currently all alone and he may be in more worse mental condition than I am in . He has been taking a stand for me in front of his parents and both the parties(he and his parents) have withdrawn from each other .

We again had a bad fight yesterday and it again blew off and this time even i couldn’t keep my calm . I told him , i want to back off. He begged me to be in the relationship and not leave him alone , but I feel , I am also mentally disturbed that both os us are triggering each other’s anger and make the situation more worse.

I am extreme crazy state now . Feeling guilty and bad about what all is happening to him and I feel I don’t have the energy to help him also . Each time , I think that maybe I should be more patient or what he is going through but whenever he bursts out at me , I can’t help but fire back and tell him to back off . He starts sobbing badly and I am like helpless . Can’t do anything .

He can’t keep himself away from me, and I wanted to .. so he blocked me last time , apologizing that he can’t keep himself from talking to me . His parents are equally torturing him . I have no option but just to pray to God to help him .