Thanks for replying back Anita.

I guess, you were able to understand what’s happening . Yes , You are right. He may not be the right one to go ahead with . Both personal differences and family issues will ruin both of us .

Sometimes , I just try to step into his shoes and think , how would he be feeling. He was always the Mumma’s Boy before i stepped into his life . I encouraged him to take a stand for himself and his love in front of his parents . He finally took the courage to do it. Moreover , he also initiated counseling for his anger . He must be feeling so betrayed after I decided to step back .

Also , we have different opinions in fundamental values . He is more like things should be this way and not that way . Partners are supposed to tell each and everything to each other and there is nothing called personal space between partners . And I am just the opposite . Every Individual need their own space . Like , Even if he kind of overcome his anger issues , fundamental differences will exists . We were good friends . We just couldn’t see all this in our friendship so we thought we are compatible.

Thanks for listening to me . I welcome all your advice and thought .

Hi Anita ,

No ,  the current boyfriend I am referring to is not Jason . Both my ex and Jason , I had referred to in my previous posts are happily married now .

The current boyfriend I am referring to is my long time Friend.

The ‘same Wrong’ thing is his expectations which I am not able to meet and that becomes a mistake which I committed . Small things like not communicating everything to him forsay , booking a flight , not prioritizing him over my work and these stuff.

I want to add one more point here that he has no support from anyone . He is currently all alone and he may be in more worse mental condition than I am in . He has been taking a stand for me in front of his parents and both the parties(he and his parents) have withdrawn from each other .

We again had a bad fight yesterday and it again blew off and this time even i couldn’t keep my calm . I told him , i want to back off. He begged me to be in the relationship and not leave him alone , but I feel , I am also mentally disturbed that both os us are triggering each other’s anger and make the situation more worse.

I am extreme crazy state now . Feeling guilty and bad about what all is happening to him and I feel I don’t have the energy to help him also . Each time , I think that maybe I should be more patient or what he is going through but whenever he bursts out at me , I can’t help but fire back and tell him to back off . He starts sobbing badly and I am like helpless . Can’t do anything .

He can’t keep himself away from me, and I wanted to .. so he blocked me last time , apologizing that he can’t keep himself from talking to me . His parents are equally torturing him . I have no option but just to pray to God to help him .