Dear Anita,

I want to add something also..

Actually i don’t know why my feeling is too hurt right now.. if i change to give more love to myself, trying to think positively and cure my paranoid or possessive.. is that matters for now..? Because every time i thought about changing myself, my heart feels hurt deeper.. because after i know the fact that he gave more attention and care to another girl, not for me that i also need that attention.. and after he said he won’t do that again, he change his behaviour to treat me at chat but it’s just last for 1 week. After that, he cold again.. this all make my life such in a dark place and i don’t have anyother reason to live… i’ve been through darkest time before, when my father passed away and i live alone. Even that time i also don’t have spirit to live, but i still have hope for my future and everyone care about me.. but since my marriage, i always put him first and thought everything for this little family..

Then now.. i really lost..