Dear Nia:

Because your emotional pain is not because of your husband is doing anything wrong to you, let’s talk about what your emotional pain really is about. As you write here about what your pain really is about (let’s call it your original pain), you will not be writing about what your pain is not about (let’s call it your projected pain, as in your original pain being projected to your husband).

Your original pain will lessen once you express it, let it exit you some through words and tears if they come. When your original pain lessens, so will your projected pain lessen.

“I’m not really worried about homeless or something like that. Because I’ve been through those all when my father passed away… so that’s why when that thing u called dark mode in my heart came up, it’s feel really hurt and make me don’t wanna live”- that a lot of original pain. If you want to, when you are alone at home, tell me more, express yourself. If you feel like crying, cry and type through the tears. If you need a break from the computer, take the break and come back to the computer, typing away anything that’s on your mind and heart.

anita