@ Michelle thanks for your kinds words I hope time really does help I just feel so lost and lonely and being in lockdown doesn’t help. People tell you to keep busy and try new things but that’s not possible at the moment my whole world was wrapped up in him and his family and it’s all gone in one  conversation the shock is so so painful

@Genie thanks also for your kind words. It’s been three months I have soul searched as he feels it was very much habitual for me no I was happy loved my life and that’s what’s so hard it was such a shock to me. We had plans things we were going to do. The pain for me is as bad as the day he left i am finding it hard to move forward

The Covid 19 situation has put many things for people into perspective for me it makes me miss him more and his family I should not be going through this alone I should have the m but I find contact with them all so painful

Lost and very very lonely