Dear blkhwkdwn1:

Two things:

1. That summer was the best summer in your life because you had the best emotional experience there is: “to feel connected to someone and they felt connected to me”- you said it.

2. If you tell her once again that it’s over, goodbye etc., your credibility is close to zero, because like you said: “I have tried that many times and I just keep coming back”.

So you are stuck with the above two things, the memories and desire to experience #1 again, and not being able to carry out#2, or at least, having a very poor record of carrying out #2.

Plus, you didn’t manage to meet a different woman to feel  connected to and she feeling connected to you.

By the way, last you wrote, she wasn’t seeing “her man” as you refer to him, he was working a lot.. it was 11 days ago that she said that she won’t be seeing him for 26 days. Also she was going to help her daughter who was evicted and she wasn’t doing well with everything. I wonder what is going on with her now.

I hope you are no longer coughing and soon to be back to being paid overtime!

anita