Dear Anita

I have been meditating a lot currently and it helps me de-stress as well as improve my concentration. I still struggle with anxiety that sometimes clouds my thoughts and I sometimes find myself remembering only bits of a memory and working on finding it because my mind is lost in anxiety. Sometimes I feel like the anxiety is making me feel detached from myself like I am aware of the world, but not really there in myself. Like I’m just an energy being flowing around and looking at nature who experiences anxiety and I’m not really there in my body. Since my body gives me dysphoria I find that I don’t really connect with it much, there are times when I find myself checking in on myself and I find things that I like about my body like my toned arms and that gives me a sense of self rather than just feeling like an energy being that is just floating away. I find that people who have loud voices are the ones that startle me the most because my voice is quieter and I feel like louder voices just make me anxious because they remind me of my parents yelling sometimes. I like people who have moderate voices who aren’t too loud or don’t introduce themselves in a loud way because it makes me jumpy.