I am so uncomfortable with feeling sadness, i cry and it causes physical tightness in my chest, and stomach acid buildup which very recently is causing ulcer symptoms. I am fearful of dealing with my sadness and anger because it causes physical things to happen. i am 23 and i so wish i was 75 to know that i can make it through this time in my life. ive lost 14 pounds without trying to this month and have started seeing a counselor weekly. i am waiting for that peaceful day in my life when i do not cry or feel anxious. it has been a full month of crying and stress. i do not know what to do. 🙁 i distract by watching tv and i used to be an avid marijuana smoker until about 40 days ago. I have had stress dreams and i am just so tired and feel hopeless. your stories are inspiring but the inspiration feels so fleeting and unattainable for me.