Thank you both for your kind words, it means alot
and its nice to hear of others who have experienced this too. I am determined to get myself in a better state of mind and full of positive energy and healing myself. Hearing your words just helps me even more to keep going and be strong and that i will get through this. We have this one life we should make the most of and do all we want to do and just be happy. Thank you again im so grateful for you both responding to me it has made my day.

Sam x