Dear Anita,

Yes you are alright.. i thought so… i thought my husband also a good guy..

About gift giving actually first time i thought that is his love language.. i mean he never give me surprise. So he bought something that i know.. he just surprise me that he said he will buy it for me for example. he mostly bought some of my dream stuff.. such as set of serial books, bags, phone that i wanted the most, and even its food without i asking or begging him to buy it for me.. when i feel in badmood, he will always give me advice to buy some good food.. even if that time i just need and want his hug..

Sometimes i feel confused.. i think everyone can buy stuff for his girlfriend right? So that girlfriend will allways be with him.. i such a different.. i don’t know why.. how many times he give me some gifts.. the feels of happiness just stand for some days.. and after that i feel like i forgot.. sometimes when i look at stuff that he bought to me, i feel blessed.. but you know.. that feeling not last forever..

Or maybe i was wrong.. I’m the only one too exaggerated about his negativity or his lack.. i wanna to change and wanna stop worrying about his feeling..

And about act of service. I dont know much about this actually.. but sometimes he helping me with the dishes, helping me when i cooking, sometimes he help to clean the bathroom..  and he loves me to always put dish on his plate and give to him.. i don’t know.. is that sign that he want me to show act of service?

And this is something that cross my head now.. honestly it’s really hard to not looking at his chat.. and yesterday i just saw only 1 chat.. from his woman colleague.. different from colleague that first time i told you.. so the story is : when my husband post our wedding photo. Then i look her comment. she said something about me.. she said “poor tania”. I don’t know whats that mean..? And why she said like that.. could you tell me something inside your mind about this..? Am i too sensitive now..?