Marie, thank you so much for your kind words. I don’t think I’m harassing or stalking him and I definitely don’t see any point in further contacting him. I don’t think I can look for him to give me any closure or forgiveness from my own guilt. I think that needs to come from myself and I hope that’s something that time or therapy sessions can help me with.

I have definitely learned that the next time I’m in a relationship, I really need to be more aware of my own emotions and control it better and also give the relationship a chance to breath. Having too much time together is not healthy. I need to balance myself and not lose myself in the relationship and not ever let it be more important than myself. As for reconciliation and being friends, if it comes back, then it’s meant to be. If not, all I can do is really let it be..