Dear anita,

Thank you, I will let you know.

I had a really hard time this week. Things aren’t going well. At times like this, I wonder: Am I too weak? Why is it that I’m not strong enough? Am I too sensitive to little things? If yes, then why I can’t I be tougher… I just got a call from dad in the morning. He subtly showed annoyance in his tone. He kind of indicated we are a burden. Or maybe I am looking into words a bit too much. But, really, that call broke me down. I am crying since. I do not feel good at all.

I am so so tired. I am not doing well in exam prep., things at home are going really bad, I am getting financially stressed.

Maybe calming down is what I need, but those things don’t disappear even if I distract for a while. It is too realistic to just disappear or resolve itself. Especially, financial matters, they don’t solve themselves, they’re stressing me out. Should I tell my parents to talk to each other for these things and stop making me make the calls? My dad would be definitely the one to reject this with all his might. He hates mom. Hates even listening to the sound of her voice. how would they make a call?

If it doesn’t work out, it’ll definitely create more chaos in house, with slamming doors, and everyone being bitter to each other. If it doesn’t work out, I’ll not be able to get rid of the responsibility.

My breath is getting shorter and I can’t stop the tears. I am so scared of living for another day

I am so sorry if it is too distressing or burdensome to read through. I hope you’re feeling okay

Javairia