I get it Dee. The fear of losing what you have, those moments of attention, when you imagine that maybe this time it will last…
I understand loneliness, the worst is feeling alone even when your with those you care about.

I don’t normally respond to relationship posts. I will say this. relationships are a crucible in which the self is revealed. We well confront the best and worse of ourselves.  Try not to attach your sense of self to what is revealed, the purpose is to learn and grow. If their is no growth the experience of love becomes tainted, stuck and LOVE will push back.