Dear anita,

thank you for your kindness! You like me, even though you know my flaws and my difficult side. It means a lot to hear that. You give me hope and have helped me for a long time. Thank you for doing so much for me and for others.

It has helped me when people like you or my therapist accepted me when I could not accept myself. Slowly, I am learning to become o.K. with myself.

With time, I might also be able to do more and contribute more to the world. Maybe I could make books that are thought-provoking, or that inspire someone to connect more with nature or art. Or maybe I could just share these things with close friends and that would also be enough.

Actually, I don’t really think that the value of a person depends on their accomplishments. You could be a highly successful person and still be unkind.

Still, I would also like to do more. But I am already working on this. This thread is helping me and I am doing a little each day. And the more I do, the more motivated I become. So best to be patient with me, as I am already working on myself!

Also, I never knew you were a teacher! It is such an important job and truly admirable.

About today:

It was a much more productive day today. I did not really go for a walk, but maybe it counts that I went to buy some missing ingredients and took a longer route home. Then I worked on project A, learning from watching tutorials. At noon I cooked the lentil bolognese and it tasted good. Then I worked more on project A. Through the tutorials, I learned new things about the software I use and made progress. There is only one problem that I do not know how to solve. Maybe I should just let it be, but it is also quite a graphic design faux pas, so I think I will investigate some more. So I did basically everything on my list (I decided to not join the workshop for now).

Tomorrow there will be work, so there will be less time to work on my projects. So I will do some easier tasks, maybe work on project B. Also, I am saying that I have to do yoga tomorrow, even if it only for 10 minutes.

See you tomorrow!