Hi Anita,

How are you? I just felt like talking tonight.

Something a little weird is happening Anita, I wonder if you might have an answer to it. Its been around a month or so since I’ve changed my number and hence have had no calls/texts from R. While on the whole, I am feeling much calmer and stable, a part of me feels very weird. It’s like feeling rejected all over again by him, it’s as if he left me all over again and in a weird sort of way, I am missing his calls. I mean I myself changed my number to be away from him and now I am wondering why is he not doing something to reach out. I find myself wondering if he has moved on to another girl or has stopped thinking of me. I know I don’t want to be with him, in my head I also know that I never want to be with him again, I’ve also introspected and I know that even if I see his call flashing on my phone right now, it won’t bring me any real happiness as I never want to go down that road again but I still feel weird. Why? Is it that due to his regular calls the whole year, I’d become used to them and I’m just experiencing some kind of a withdrawal affect?
When I changed my number, I’d told my friend whose number he has, to not give him my number if he calls asking for it. Two days back when she called and said that thankfully he hasn’t called asking for my number, I felt, I can’t really explain the feeling, it was a mix of ‘finally, thank god’ and ‘so he is moving on?’. Last night I dreamt of him with some other girl and woke up feeling uncomfortable, not particularly sad but just uneasy. I think I’m feeling that the relationship has finally come to a close with him also giving up on calling and maybe it is just a passing feeling due to that. What do you think, Anita?

On the more positive note, I went on a date a few days back, my first since the breakup. He’s an old acquaintance of mine who I knew liked me since long and when he figured I’m single, he asked me out, and I went. I had a really good time Anita and though I’ve let him know that I want to focus on myself right now and am not wanting a relationship at this moment, we’ve decided to stay in touch as friends. 🙂

Love,

Jenny.

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