Dear anita,

yes, spring is coming, just the last days were more like winter again. I enjoy looking at the blossoms, especially the pink cherry tree blossoms. I want to sit under a pink cherry blossom tree and enjoy spring, read or have a picnic.

Today things went better at work. It was a much calmer day and we got a lot of things done. There were fewer phone calls and questions. So I was feeling less stressed. Yesterday I was so stressed that I couldn’t sleep.

You are right, I try my best and I also did with this client. There were no bad intentions from me, maybe a bit of impatience/insecurity/being hectic.

My colleague gave me some feedback today that I know about how things work, but when someone catches me off guard with a question, you can hear the insecurity in my voice. I want to improve, but I am still learning. Work is like a big learning ground for me with a lot of challenges, but I think I have already gotten better. And the good thing is, I can feel that my colleagues appreciate me and accept me. It is not something that I did experience much before.

Another good thing is, that probably from now on I can work two times again each week, so I am almost back to my old schedule. I am thankful that I have a job during these times and that my colleagues are good people.

After work, I did about 30 minutes of yoga and felt refreshed after it. Then I made food and talked to one of my roommates. We get along well so far and I am happy. On the other hand, worries come up quickly, worries that I am not good enough, that I am strange, and say the wrong things. But maybe I should just be happy about the current situation, that everything is calm and worry less.

Later I painted a while for project B. Now I am feeling tired and will go to sleep soon. Tomorrow is another work day and after work, I will meet a friend, so maybe there will not be much time for other things. But maybe I could still do some yoga or paint.

• This reply was modified 3 years, 8 months ago by Lily.