“Whoever is happy will make others happy too.” –Anne Frank

well its been 2 months and 20 days since i started my journey out of my bubble. Im pleased to say I am now completely toxin free, having given up pot and smoking cold turkey finally successfully (5 weeks straight now). Yes I alluded to having given up in the past but i did at times slip. However I know now, that is in my past.

I’m also 6 weeks into my University course (psychology) and plodding away, everyday. I still have no communication with my daughter, who this year will turn 25, however that is her journey which i respect. Since waking up i feel I am no longer in the realm of a “hungry ghost” and therefore my attachment is much lessened.

I’m reserved to the fact that it will be a few more months until I am completely flushed of my 32 year habit and thats okay, I look forward to that challenge. I am currently reading Hagakure written by a samurai on the way to live, which re connects me with the ideals i was fascinated by as a child.

I also potentially have a job opportunity coming up, being a mentor to a young boy whose family need help as they lost his father 6 years ago. This may be jeopardised when we meet as I am heavily tattooed, which may not be their thing. I have not told them of this though as I feel once they meet and talk with me my inked hands and arms will hopefully be less of a concern. What will be, will be….

To all those still struggling (and i am too) i think of another quote

“when you’ve reached the end of your rope, tie a knot in it and hang on”