Dear Pavel:

You feel a parabatai bond with Lukas. A parabatai is “a pair of Nephilim warriors who fight together as lifelong partners, bound together by oath, regardless of their gender”, an online source reads. “Nephilim” are mysterious beings or people mentioned in the Hebrew Bible, large and strong, loosely translated as giants large and strong people, says an online source.

Reads like you feel very strongly for Lukas. You asked if  “this is a normal thing to experience”- I say: it is normal to feel strongly for another person and to want to be with that other person for life, regardless of gender.

How did he hurt you?

You have a lot to handle: being addicted to drugs, suffering from Borderline Personality Disorder with psychosis and mania. Are you receiving professional help?

anita

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