Dear Kibou:

Welcome back and congratulations again, for all the healing you accomplished last year, starting in March 2020!

October 2020, you wrote: “I am okay and not okay is the best way I can describe it. The okay part referring to all the progress I have made.. The not okay part, is the pain I feel.. it still takes me lots of energy to do anything… many simple things like getting dressed take lots of energy”.

Six months later, April 2021, you wrote: “I have lost many interests and I have little vision; I have very few goals, my motivation and passions also lay flat. I still have moments of joy or happiness, but in general, it is ‘dull’ when I do something”-

– reads like you suffered from depression in October 2020 and still.

You wrote today that because of your healing journey, “many traumatic events have lost their emotional charge”-

– reads like your whole experience of life has lost its emotional charge, and therefore you feel “flat” and “dull”.

You shared that your “wound of abandonment” has not fully healed, that your feelings of abandonment have been growing lately, and that there has been a trend where you are being ghosted by friends.

“I know that I will always have my family”- I am guessing that your family was not always there for you, and that is where your abandonment wound originated.

anita