Dear Ishita,

but nonetheless , ya I dont know , what should I think now., this is kind of difficult to let go , of re-analyzing everything again and again.

I hear you… but it’s also useful to look at things in detail, to really be sure what happened and to draw some conclusions… So, I believe that since he knew how you feel about him, and he still told you he doesn’t share the same sentiments and that it didn’t even cross his mind (“I never thought of us in this way”), there is no doubt that he’s not interested in a relationship with you.

Ya I kind of couldnt believe it ,then, because I honestly , genuinely felt he had something, and I wouldnt just imagine that, I am not someone who does that, I think I would have backed off in the very beginning if he would have even slightly given me a hint.

I know it’s painful because it felt like he’s into you, but obviously he is a good actor and could charm you away, even though you were careful not to put your guard down too quickly. Also keep in mind that you liked him from starters, he was someone you admired, so when such a guy showed interest in you, you of course wanted to believe he really feels something for you. His flattery felt good – you felt flattered that this guy is interested in you. So perhaps there’s an insecurity in you, which made you vulnerable to him?

Actually you mentioned in your earlier posts that the two of you are quite different:

I am someone pretty confident about myself, but I was so into not wanting to lose him, that I eventually began to feel obligated somewhere or the other, because I knew we were very different people , and I really thought that maybe I had begun to become too much for him now, which was so wrong to feel for oneself.

.. this entire incident has also got to make some revelation about me, on why did allow myself to feel obligated to someone, are such people even worth it in the long run in your life, if you cant be yourself around them.

The fact that you couldn’t be yourself around him would prove that you felt insecure, “lesser than” him. How do you feel you two are different? What does he have, which you feel you don’t have?